Starting My Ministry...

Throughout this cancer process I have heard the Lord clearly speak to my heart about doing a speaking ministry. After much prayer, I feel like I have been released to speak about how God romances us through our most difficult situations. If you would like some more information about my the Cancer Sucks, God Rocks Ministry... please contact me! Here is the video from my first speaking event! 

http://www.youtube.com/user/cancersucksgodrocks

My Husband, the dream stealer...

Ryan and I have a joke about him being a dream stealer... I want to be published, he has been....etc. He has wanted to learn how to take pictures with my camera and I have succesfully managed to keep this knowledge to myself, until I realized that I am in Jonah's baby album at birth and then I do not show up again! So I put aside my pride and taught him the very basics... 

and this is what happens. Darn Ryan...

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I LOVE THIS PICTURE!!!

Baby No More!

Last weekend we decided that Jonah was ready for a big boy bed. Well, maybe I should say that Jonah decided it was time since he was the one that figured out how to get out of the crib. He has done so well with his new bed and I have never seen him so excited about something unrelated to animals! Here are some pics! Enjoy! 

BTW- I have some amazing things to tell you about the last month! I am sorry I have not kept up the blog, but good things come to those who wait!

Ok, now onto the pics...

just a quickie...

Thought I would post a quick update, more will follow this weekend.

As of right now, they have stopped the treatments. Fear not worry warts of the blog, they will start back on Monday, but they will be giving me a lesser dose. Why? Well, last weekend I stopped being able to walk by myself. My legs were so weak, I had to hold onto things or people in order to get across the room. Needless to say, this was not supposed to happen. After the weekend break my legs started to feel better, so they resumed as normal with my treatment until it started happening again on wed. So they are giving me a long weekend to recover and then I will back at it on Monday. 

ONE WEEK DOWN!

and I think I am the only interferon patient to gain weight! I had my first dr. appointment since the treatment started and it was very discouraging. I learned I had gained 6 lbs. and the dr. was not very nice. When I first met with this dr. 1 1/2 years ago, I did not like him. I still do not like him. I was explaining that I was having problems with nausea and asking if there was anything else we could do about it. He then ask me if I am having cold chills, night sweats, fevers and I say no.... he says well then you should count yourself lucky.  I wanted to say it is more then just luck that I do not have the worst side effects, that is because of Jesus, but I kept my mouth shut. He then told me that he discounted me when I told him I struggle with nausea when we first met and that he should have taken me seriously. Well YES, he should have taken me seriously. I know my body better then ANYONE. So I left his office discouraged and feeling like I can not tell my dr medical issues and be taken seriously. But, at the end of my visit, the nurse handed me my calendar with a whole week checked off. Thanks God for that! 

Treatment went ok. I am still tired and achy but hopefully Ryan and I will be able to watch a movie tonight. I got my week long IV out (also another praise that I was able to keep the IV in for 5 days, instead of 4). 

Confession time: I do not feel like I have been able to point to God as much as I wanted to. I have been so focused on if I was going to feel side effects, or just too scared to do anything. That cancer center is a very intimidating place. I pray that as I go into this next week of treatment that everyone will be able to see Christ in me! It is real Hope and real Power that I have in my life... a power so strong that even interferon has not been able to defeat it!! God is so awesome and I can not wait to get to church on Sunday and just praise him! 

Day 4....

Almost a full week down.  I am hanging in there.  A very interesting thing happened today! While I was receiving my zophran pre meds I started having blurry vision in my right eye. Apparently, this is a not to often side effect of this drug. Leave it to me. 

Today my mom came and sat with me.  Since I had that eye thing, I was kinda glad she was there... that freaked the heck out for me. The eye thing kinda catapulted my bad day into a bad night.  I had the worst fatigue of the week. To top it off, the nausea was horrible. It took everything I had just to make it up the stairs to go to bed. I should have just slept on the couch. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. 

Here is a pic of mom and I right before the "eye incident".  Susan, this pic is for you. 

Day 3...

Whoop! Whoop! Still feeling great! The nurse told me that this week should be the hardest for me, and so far so good!